I’ve come to yet another fork in the proverbial road of life; and this time I’m at a dead halt. Up until now I’ve been cruising down the highway, watching the mile markers, and planning my exit. Now that I’m finally here, I’m at a full stop in the divider, watching the other cars go by on both sides.
They say (and I do too to my indecisive friends) that inaction is an action in itself, and that you’re better off choosing ‘A’ path rather than sitting idly by and letting your future be determined for you. While this is good advice … even great advice; it’s a bit more daunting sitting here in the driver’s seat than I had anticipated.
I’ve never thought myself an indecisive person (I wonder how many of us really do). As it turns out though, I might just not care enough about most things in life to be indecisive about them. While for better or worse I’ve gotten this far with this mindset, this time it’s a bit different.
Whether or not true, I feel like this ‘decision’ will have lasting consequences on the rest of my life. As much as I like Robert Frost and all… I don’t know if ‘all the difference’ is necessarily a good thing. In my case the choices are: NYC vs. SF, job vs. no job, java vs. .net, and status quo vs. carpe diem. (At least this is how I see it).
The sad thing is that I know the ‘correct’ answers to this test: 1> NYC 2> No Job 3> Java and 4> Carpe Diem. Yet, despite this, the practical side of me says… “You can’t just quit your job.. And you can’t just take a job cuz it’s a job”.
As this internal struggle wages on in my head, I can see the consequences of letting life passing me by on both sides of the road.
What’s the conclusion to this story you ask? What’s the resolution that comes from this moment of clarity? Unfortunately, I can’t answer that… I’m not done being indecisive quite yet.
3 Comments
d00d, just freaking go already. Did you ever realize that you might never again be in the position to just up and go? Nothing in life is permanent when you are young and have no real responsibilities. Get the funk on!
Experience something new. If you don’t like it, go back home. But do it while you still can. I don’t regret my travels even if they brought me back to where I started in the end.
Nike that mug! Just do it.
Now that you’ve decided… I might have to come with you!
I love number 4 the best. What the fuck is Carpet Diem? Is that like some chic carpet brand by hugo boss? Fits in perfectly with your whole nyc thing. Good luck out there. I hope you get laid out there man. Remember to wear your jimmy hat. I see your life unfolding like this: You move to new york, you go to cafe Lalo, you get laid, you make a baby, get maried, and we never hear from you until you tell us that you’ve officiated your own wedding… we find out all of this by reading it in your blog. Carpet Diem man… CARPET DIEM. It’s ok, we’ll stil luv ya.
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