I’ve come to yet another fork in the proverbial road of life; and this time I’m at a dead halt. Up until now I’ve been cruising down the highway, watching the mile markers, and planning my exit. Now that I’m finally here, I’m at a full stop in the divider, watching the other cars go by on both sides.

They say (and I do too to my indecisive friends) that inaction is an action in itself, and that you’re better off choosing ‘A’ path rather than sitting idly by and letting your future be determined for you. While this is good advice … even great advice; it’s a bit more daunting sitting here in the driver’s seat than I had anticipated.

I’ve never thought myself an indecisive person (I wonder how many of us really do). As it turns out though, I might just not care enough about most things in life to be indecisive about them. While for better or worse I’ve gotten this far with this mindset, this time it’s a bit different.

Whether or not true, I feel like this ‘decision’ will have lasting consequences on the rest of my life. As much as I like Robert Frost and all… I don’t know if ‘all the difference’ is necessarily a good thing. In my case the choices are: NYC vs. SF, job vs. no job, java vs. .net, and status quo vs. carpe diem. (At least this is how I see it).

The sad thing is that I know the ‘correct’ answers to this test: 1> NYC 2> No Job 3> Java and 4> Carpe Diem. Yet, despite this, the practical side of me says… “You can’t just quit your job.. And you can’t just take a job cuz it’s a job”.

As this internal struggle wages on in my head, I can see the consequences of letting life passing me by on both sides of the road.

What’s the conclusion to this story you ask? What’s the resolution that comes from this moment of clarity? Unfortunately, I can’t answer that… I’m not done being indecisive quite yet.